Bored

I'm bored and feeling stifled. I want to write but I don't know who I would talk to or write about anyway. I have been trying to write a book like forever but I can't focus on it. I feel like I am just drifting and need to write but I have no motivation to do so. I hear voices needing their stories told but I don't even want to open the file and try it.

I hate when I get this way I feel like I am bottled up energy and I am not even that strong. I don't want to read, don't want to write, don't want to play my apps. So what is left to do? I could clean but hey I could also spit out a grand out of my ass but I don't see that as happening. When I get like this I either clean, sleep or get migraine. In fact I have been seeing the little zig zags before my eyes. I see them before I get a migraine.

And I am watching TV right now, and Cameran Diez is complaining that she was too skinny, and had bad skin awww poor baby! Give me a freaking break! She has no idea what it is to be ugly, and have to loose weight. I have to say shut the hell up! She is just trying to hawk her fucking book! Really complaining that she can eat anything she wants and be so proud of her 'genes' Going on and on about how she wants to age gracefully! Then complaining about women who use botox, women who do not look as good as she does. Fuck me but shut up please!

I am in no mood to hear about how much some star with little to NO concept how reall people live tell me how to love myself. Bitch please get your skinny ass off the damned tv and go eat a pizza.